the feminine urge to wear blue eyeshadow

i have a very specific weakness for blue eyeshadow in old movies. i don't know what it is. it just looks so pretty. a little dramatic, a little tacky, sometimes completely unnecessary, and yet i love it.

whenever i see an actress wearing that soft blue eyeshadow, especially with big hair and that very 60s/70s kind of face, i immediately want to try it too.

and sometimes i actually do. which is probably a mistake. because i have hooded eyelids. so i spend 20 minutes putting blue eyeshadow on, open my eyes, and... where did it go? seriously. it's basically invisible unless i'm blinking.

sometimes i look at movie stars with their perfectly visible eyelids and think, wow. must be nice. meanwhile, i'm over here trying to convince my eyes to cooperate. but i still love it. maybe i'll eventually figure out how to make blue eyeshadow work for me.

or maybe i'll just keep wearing it and pretending i look like someone in an old movie. either way, i'm committed now.